When huge life changes happen, they seem to happen in clumps. The breakup - then losing one of my closest friends to a cross country move. I knew her move was happening but had no clue it would be so quick and soon!!! I need her here!!!
Snow is flying, I am working, her and her husband are franticly bouncing around at banks and brokers. Then they come in, pack up the vehicles and roll out on the 14hr journey. I wave from the window and choke on my tears. I am so happy to see them so in love and happy. They are moving on with their dream life, and I am staying here working on mine. But with that said, beloved cousin is relocated and happy in a new state far, far way... But I shall visit quarterly as planned!
Emotionally drained from the outcome of an ugly parts of life and physically drained from all the clean up and remodeling needed after. I decided to put the cabin up for sale and see where it takes me.
The in my mind board meetings have been loud and full of spirit through all this!
Voice 1 ,"Be polite your mother raised you to be a nice person!" I thank those who helped me in the repair, and for those who have given me the opportunity to grow & learn.
Voice 2, "Your mother raised to say nothing at all if you have nothing nice to say." Oh I have sooo many negatives to say, but will restrain myself. She gets a nod, because I want to remain positive and hopeful.
Voice 3 is saying (the annoying voice of adult reason) All things happen for a reason, trust the process.
Voice 4 pipes in, completely true to form with perpetual PMS, is snapping out a slew of profanity… @#$%^&* I cannot decide if I like change, but I can tell you for a fact I donot like heart break nor sadness with feeling completely alone!
Voice 5 comments with today’s uplifting quote. "Every day may not be good, but there is good in every day"
Voice 6, pops in with all her happy sparkly personality, with all the determination to take over the world one step at a time, tossing glitter along the way smiles. I have a vacation place to go to for the next 13 years - AKA when I retire and can move there for good. If the stars line up and I can get there sooner, I would be more than pleased!
Will I sell the cabin? Will I keep the cabin? Will I work from home for the rest of my career? Who actually knows, but I am going to be open to new avenues & enjoy visiting cousin in her new home town, and look for mine....
Have a great day & Sparkle on!! Thanks for the read :) xoxox